Let it Go, Turn it Off

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I think the title says it all. I want to let go of so much and then simply, turn it off. I have been sitting here since 4 this morning trying to, “Let go and turn off,” it ain’t happening.

Perhaps because my beloved Kentucky wildcats are playing like a bunch of wash women. Perhaps because I have yet to receive good news to alleviate my stress. Perhaps because being as compassionate as I am I cannot turn off the world. Perhaps I need to spike my coffee.

Taking things in order: being an ex-athlete, I hate losing. Not being beat but losing and there is a huge difference. Practice never appealed to me but a game? I did not care whether it was strep throat, a dislocation or broken bone, I was competing. It was the love of the game and not the future vision of dollar signs that drove me.

Good news always alleviates stress. Last week I had to have some medical issues addressed and to date have had no news. One of those, “Want to know, yet afraid to know” things. Let’s just say I have a new concept of “Deep Space Nine” and wiggling and giggling with a needle is not a cake walk.

When one feels compassion to the depth I do there just is no switch. I cannot turn off the senseless madmen, the disasters with no warnings and the youth that feel a gun will solve their problems.

In an age of technological warp speed I cannot help but wonder if humanity is not what we are sacrificing. Have we redefined the words, “Moral and ethical?” It is okay to berate someone over a small, lifeless screen and chuckle. Is this the new writing on the bathroom wall?

Our children do not interact, they text and Facebook. To makes matters worse, we follow suit. Our children are faced with mountains we never dreamed of and I for one see no answer other than compassion.

As I sat these past few days, stressed out, I have wondered many a thing. How could a madman go unnoticed and a life be saved due to modern medicine? A higher power, my friend.

Why so many devastating disasters and isn’t it a miracle we now have the ability to rescue survivors? A short time ago that rescue would not have been possible. A higher power, my friend. 

I cannot turn off the tears I see in some of your written words. I worry, I care and as stressed as I am, want so bad to reach and touch you. It helps with the stress. But alas, I do not have this power my friend.

As you can tell I am stressed, my mind is a cluster bomb. Right now, when it goes off, it is an explosion of fragmented thoughts, mostly “Why?” Always followed by the question, “What happen to social interactions of the touchy feely kind?”

Friday I will be participating in D.L. Hammons “Significant Other” blogfest. Since I’m not married Ms. Twister will be divulging information, after all she has known me since 2nd grade. If you haven’t signed up yet hop on over and do so. It ought to be fun.

I leave you with a closing request, “Reach out today and actually TOUCH someone.” Coodies are an urban legend.

Peace.



20 comments:

Summer Ross said, 

Good post Jules. I will participating as well. Having compassion is not a bad thing.

January 19, 2011 at 9:31 AM  
Corine said, 

I am so sorry for your stress. I too have the compassion blessing.

It has helped me to do as Stephen R Covey suggests in habit one of the 7Habits of Highly Effective People... worry about the things that ARE IN my circle of influence, not my circle of concern. Of course, I still care, and I still pray, but make an effort to pour my thoughts and energies into the things I can change or infuluence, rather than into the things I can not. The cool thing about this is that as we do this, we stress less, and our circle of influence actually grows. :) Sending prayers...
Corine :D
Corine :)

January 19, 2011 at 9:39 AM  
AlexOngNYC said, 

Jules,

Always remember that God is there to help with burdens and it's not too much to ask to take the load off your hand for a bit, even if it's for a few minutes to enjoy a cup of coffee.

Alex
Breakfast Every Hour

January 19, 2011 at 9:53 AM  
Bossy Betty said, 

Hope you find a way to relieve the stress you feel. Yikes. I hate feeling that way. My thoughts are with you.

January 19, 2011 at 10:03 AM  
welcome to my world of poetry said, 

I do hope whatever the outcome you have friends here, we may never meet but there is always someone here to help you through your stress, I know what you're going through and blogging has helped me through.
I'll be thinking of you. your message on FB WORRIED me.

Yvonne.

January 19, 2011 at 10:52 AM  
Carolyn Abiad said, 

((hugs)) They're virtual, but heartfelt. Thank you so much for being your sparkly self. You put a smile on my face, every day, in my little world. I hope your feel better soon. You are an agent of that higher power...spreading sunshine with your supportive thoughts all over the blogosphere. More ((hugs))!

January 19, 2011 at 11:23 AM  
N. R. Williams said, 

I know what it's like to be on the edge and not know...I will pray for you. I think writers have a unique opportunity today to reach the young people with how to touch, be present in the moment and nurture compassion. I am thinking about giving talks to school children.
Nancy
N. R. Williams, fantasy author

January 19, 2011 at 12:23 PM  
The Golden Eagle said, 

My thoughts are with you, Jules.

January 19, 2011 at 1:14 PM  
Clarissa Draper said, 

I hope whatever news you're waiting for comes back good news. I know that times like these make us ponder the important questions. I'm in that blogfest too. See you there!

CD

January 19, 2011 at 3:43 PM  
Mary Vaughn said, 

You "win" more than you realize, Jules. You have offered so many the right word at just the right moment. That gift, too, comes from a higher power.
Touch me if you need to -- punching is not optional. LOL

January 19, 2011 at 3:45 PM  
DL Hammons said, 

I can't wait to see what Ms. Twister has to say about you! Getting a peek at all of our warts and hidden secrets should put your mind at ease...for at least one day. :)

January 19, 2011 at 3:59 PM  
Carol Riggs said, 

I was just reading through and connecting on so many points--and enjoying the "voice" of your post. The expressions you used, the way you say things. Nice!

January 19, 2011 at 5:31 PM  
floweringmama said, 

Jules, Jules, Jules, - I finally got the news back from my surgery, thank God it was good news. Now I have another procedure scheduled for my spring break. Great.

Hang in there. You will never be given more than you can handle.

When I was going through my divorce, my mantra was - what doesn't kill me, pisses me off. It got me through.

Find your mantra and own it.

Cathy @ Country Cathy

And if you have any clues on how I can fix what I need to fix so you can get updates, I'd appreciate it.

January 19, 2011 at 6:11 PM  
The Words Crafter said, 

This was chock full of good stuff! Wisdom, you're speaking it!

I, too, have had to wait. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers....

January 19, 2011 at 6:28 PM  
Queen-Size funny bone said, 

My mind is always reeling and I feel swallowed by the chaos of the world. I sometimes wish I could be like a tape recorder. Play, erase, fast forward and rewind.

January 19, 2011 at 6:59 PM  
Myne Whitman said, 

I pray you find some relief for your stress. And yeah, hugs even over the screen, :)

I'll head over to the blogfest...

January 19, 2011 at 7:27 PM  
Amy said, 

Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. I hope things get better for you soon.

January 19, 2011 at 7:56 PM  
Arlee Bird said, 

I guess we can all get absorbed in something now and then and sometimes a lot. It's hard to break free sometimes. Hope you are taking time to just enjoy your life now and then and mostly a lot.

Lee
Tossing It Out

January 20, 2011 at 1:33 AM  
Katie Gates said, 

Wow, Jules, this is a powerful post, and I can relate. I hope the stress will lift soon for you! As for technology, don't get me started. I've got a piece that I'll not be Monday Re-running for a while, but you might find some comfort there, or rather here:
http://katiegateswrites.blogspot.com/2010/06/too-many-machines.html
In the meantime, thank God for Jimmy Fallon, right?

January 20, 2011 at 2:40 AM  
Pk Hrezo said, 

Well I'm really hoping for the best for you. I know what you mean here--that our children will not know how to really "be" with one another. It is very worrisome what the future may hold. All we can do is keep the faith and trust in that higher power.

You are a lovely writer. See you at the Sig Other Blogfest!

January 20, 2011 at 5:04 AM  
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