What is the State of the Union?
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
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Let me start by saying thank you and I’m sorry. Let me extend a warm thank you for all the lovely comments on Mondays Toilet post. I’m sorry I had so many of you worried even if for a split second. It just goes to show you anything can be a story, just change your vantage point.
You all know I’m still unemployed right? Well Monday I met a guy about doing freelance Architectural drawings from home. It felt like a double edged sword piercing my stomach.
On one hand I was glad for the chance to actually earn some income, every little bit counts. On the other hand I felt sick to my soul. Drawing the insides of a concrete block is like drinking water. You need to do it but it truly brings you no pleasure.
I was Skyping Ms. Twister last night (which I’m in love with Skype) and talking about creativity. I was telling her how for the first time in a VERY long time I felt my creativity coming back. How the dark clouds, depression and the simply going through the motions had started to lift. I’m now experiencing that feeling of actually living a life in lieu of existing in a life.
She agreed and had noticed the change. You see my creativity encompasses the entire art world. I like them all; music, painting, sketching, photography, stained glass, crafts and of course writing. The art of expression through whatever medium is available.
In saying that, now you see why drawing the 6 lines to indicate the inside of a concrete block just does nothing for me anymore. Finally I’m happy but broke. So here is my state of the union message for this Wednesday.
The good lord but me in this situation for a reason. You don’t have to believe in god but I do, no pressure. I feel for the past ten years he has been pounding me on the head to change, this is not where I want you.
Okay, I’m listening. Where am I suppose to be? It will come; I know this in my heart. Whether it be through the written word or paint on canvas it will come. Who knows it maybe both?
For some weird reason I have not felt the tinge of worry, yet. Through my written words I have found a voice; a light, a place of contentment. It is what I think all writers feel but my contentment leads to sketches, leads to a craft project, leads to a picture, a song and then back to written words.
Call it a phase, a transformation, a lit path, whatever; I’m on a journey of the soul. My higher power has a purpose for me and that I feel in every inch of my being. I’m in the “Snatch the pebble from my hand, grasshopper,” phase.
Where all this will lead, only heaven knows at this point, there is a plan. So for now I will drag myself to the other PC, belly up and produce lovely drawings of concrete block innards. But I’ll be hurrying so I can get back to my journey and you guys.
(The house now stands and gives a rousing round of applause)
For those of you in the grip of this monster storm be safe, be patient, be warm and stay in. My thoughts are with you.
Until Friday my friends.
Peace….
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21 comments:
It is the reason I keep writing regardless of rejection or success. It makes me feel more alive and brings me peace.
Jules, you have every reason to be down, but try not to. It is what it is and your character type is a doer and push througher. As long as there is tomorrow, there is another opportunity.
Hang in there and be inspired...even with the concrete block which will lead to the more important inspirations.
T
Hang in there... I know the ideal state is to do a work we enjoy, the one that doesn't feel like working at all... but that is not always possible - even with a dream work there are times or tasks we "have" to do. Do your concrete drawings with passion, feel like they are taking you places, and come back to us as soon as you can! Big cyber hug!!
The fact that you are on your journey means that you are not stagnating. Instead, it's part of your growth process and that is a beautiful thing. Hang in there, Bloggy Friend. Spring (metaphorical and otherwise) is on its way.
Good morning, Jules. Althought I've only been following you for a short time, I feel you are a beautiful soul.
I think it's wonderful that you actually realize you're actually on a journey. Accept it and embrace it.
Peace, my friend.
It's wonderful how you're embracing your new journey. Every journey (job) begins with a single step. Step proudly into tomorrow.
Jules~ I'm happy you are finding some enjoyment in where you are even if you have to draw straight lines of concrete insides.
"The Constitution only guarantees the American people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself." ~Benjamin Franklin
Ha, I love the phrase "concrete block innards." Well, it's something to pay the bills I guess, and look what you get to do in your spare time! Some people don't have anything to liven themselves up and provide joy and creativity, and that's really sad. Good luck!
"Concrete block innards", Honey...this too will pass. At least your on a journey and movin' forward, ya sure won't grow stagnant that way.
God bless ya sweet Jules and hang in there...I just know God has great things in store for ya! :o)
Jules, it shall come to you! You are open to opportunities and willing to take on work that doesn't necessarily awaken you, but you never know to where it may lead.
I so relate to this, I've been avoiding taking on some work because it's the sort I want to leave behind. But it's not easy having no income in these times. So we do what we must, and keep working on what we love.
Keep following your heart.
Hugs.
Being at a crossroads is difficult. I make pro and con lists when I'm not sure what to do.
But when it comes to writing, I just keep at it. It's who I am now. I have to make room for it.
I wish you the best.
I have to do a lot of things at work that are creative, but not really. I think with all art, it comes with the territory. Just imagine what you could do with those blocks (drop them on someone's head?) and maybe something fun creative will emerge!
At least you have a skill that is in demand. Good luck with that, and yes, I so agree that God places us where he can work the most on us.
Nancy
N. R. Williams, fantasy author
You know, if you want God to do the work, you shouldn't worry. Just know where you want to go and let God build the path, don't try to build it yourself. I make the latter mistake too much.
Alex
Breakfast Every Hour
Good luck with that job--another stop on the journey. I've found that usually in my life good situations have come to me and I have never had much luck when I look too hard. I just know something special will be coming my way soon. We all deserve it don't we.
Lee
Tossing It Out and the Blogging From A to Z April Challenge 2011
Having similar struggles here. Hope those blocks turn out to be steppingstones!
GOOD FOR YOU! I hope this transition is a smooth one for you, and that you find yourself deep in the world of immaginations... as a master of CREATING an amazing job out of drawing concrete innards! ;D I know ya can do it!!!!
I'm going to give the ole do as I say not as I do (Which, what I do is freeze in a puddle of my own nervous piddle) and keep a truckin.
It always works out in the end. Maybe this kind of mind-numbing work will let your mind flow and make your other work more vibrant? Maybe doing this concrete block thing will introduce you to someone who will inspire a new character. Everything is inter-connected.
I couldn't draw a concrete block if I tried! Seriously, not gonna happen!
I am happy for you ... at least something has started moving..rest will take its shape when the time is right ..take care ...
I believe in God too. I believe the Lord will help me when I'm down. I feel distress and then peace as I keep trying. Something always works out, though sometimes it takes a lot of time. You sound upbeat. Something good WILL happen if you keep trying.
Ann Best, Author
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