Did You Get What You Needed?

Friday, November 26, 2010

The past couples of months have been extremely hard for me. Personal demons, soul aching and then I got a traffic ticket. At one point I could do nothing but laugh until I cried, that did not help. Do you know the song “Can’t always get what you want?”

Yesterday I got what I needed.

Do you know what it means to serve food to someone who has none?

Have you ever tried to meet the eyes of someone who has had life kick them like a soccer ball? A soul wishing not to be seen.

Have you ever tried to hand a plate to someone who shrinks? Self worth all but vanished.

Have you ever tried to hear a muted “thank you” when humility has cut their tongue out?

This was Thanksgiving.

I served food to someone who had none. We became two souls joined by a plate and a spoon. Exchanging smiles.

I met the eyes of a soul not wishing to be seen. It felt like I caught a glimpse of a unicorn. That mythical being, which there in that faded reflection now hid.

I heard the muted, “thank you.” There stood a shrinking girl, mouthing the words,” thank you” and all the while just needing a hug. From my serving position I could only respond, “you are welcome and present a smile.

Yesterday I performed my community service and was truly blessed. What I thought of, as an injustice was actually heaven sent. I did perform my service because of the traffic ticket but the act of sharing is what my heart felt.

Though I had been having an emotional tough time I dare say I have been experiencing nothing next to those I served. Like the song says, “If you try sometime, you find; you get what you need.”

I will not be making the rounds tonight or tomorrow, tomorrow I actually get to eat turkey. :) Have a truly thankful weekend and I’ll catch everyone Sunday.

And now… The Rolling Stones




19 comments:

Queen-Size funny bone said, 

A very nice way of putting things. This teared me up. thanks

November 26, 2010 at 6:25 PM  
Gail said, 

There is a blessing in everything, sometimes, we just have to look for it.

November 26, 2010 at 6:26 PM  
The Words Crafter said, 

*sniff* this was just wonderful and I'm glad you get to eat turkey tomorrow. gonna go listen to Mick now...

November 26, 2010 at 6:46 PM  
Tracy said, 

Jules, a beautiful writing and truly heart-felt. I think you truly got what you needed; what we ALL need...a reminder that things aren't that bad if they can get worse.
Take good care of yourself; I'm sending positive thoughts!

November 26, 2010 at 7:09 PM  
KarenG said, 

This was so well written, and it made my heart ache. Maybe it was forced *service* but it still made a difference to you and those you served.

November 26, 2010 at 7:26 PM  
OJ Gonzalez-Cazares said, 

"no matter how hard we ask for what we want, we always get what we need...even when we don't know it". OJ-Gonzalez

Enjoy your Turkey as much as I enjoyed your words today.

November 26, 2010 at 10:18 PM  
Kathie @ Just a Happy Housewife said, 

I teared up as well reading this. Bless your heart Jules.

November 26, 2010 at 10:42 PM  
Flying high in the sky.... said, 

Brilliant!!! i am glad you discovered the "real thanksgiving" ... you are the chosen one!

November 27, 2010 at 1:40 AM  
welcome to my world of poetry said, 

A wonderful post Jules, somtimes it's good to put the unfortunate before our own needs. I reallyenjoyed the read.

Enjoy your week-end.
Yvonne.

November 27, 2010 at 7:30 AM  
The Golden Eagle said, 

This is a beautiful post--and an excellent reminder.

Hope you enjoy the turkey. :)

November 27, 2010 at 7:37 AM  
Ellen aka Ella said, 

Hi Jules,
Beautiful post; I so want to volunteer. My daughter did, made turkey sandwiches on Tues and Wed handed them out to the homeless. She truly saw raw, soul filled people. A woman that was barefoot, bothered her the most.
It changed her view of our world.
I truly am going to try to get my whole family involved in some form of volunteering. It is a gift,for mankind, and an act of kindness to those who have so few. This is the true spirit of the holidays! I am so glad you participate; I know it lighted your heart and what you gave, smiles served with a spoonful of hope and warmth, during their meal, meant so much~ xXx

November 27, 2010 at 8:01 PM  
Arlee Bird said, 

I'm glad your service was a blessing and not an inconvenience. It's good to get what you need.

Lee
Tossing It Out

November 27, 2010 at 8:27 PM  
Rayna M. Iyer said, 

Beautiful writing, Jules. and so very true.

Would a hug from India make up for the one you did not get?

November 27, 2010 at 8:57 PM  
Velvet Over Steel said, 

What a heartfelt post and experience, Jules! Beautiful, yet teary, post!! I feel that many things happen for a reason and the traffice ticket opened a door you'd never opened before. WOW.. what perfect words you used to describe it for us!! I still have goosebumps and tears!! Thank you for sharing with us, Jules!!!

Blessings & Big Hug,
Coreen

November 27, 2010 at 11:42 PM  
Hold my hand: a social worker's blog said, 

Jules,
That was a heartwarming post. So Beautiful.

Also, thanks for stopping by my blog and for your kind comment.

Blessings.
Doris

November 28, 2010 at 9:39 PM  
floweringmama said, 

Jules,
The best way to pull yourself out of the funk you're in is to help someone else. I'll be the first to admit, it's not easy. Sometimes it's hard to even find the strength to crawl out of bed and face a new day.

Some days it's easier to just stay in bed and laugh crazily until we cry. But somewhere - down really deep - we know. That hinting voice in the back of our mind saying that it's ok.

I'm so glad you got what you needed. I wish we could bottle that feeling.

Hugs from a Kentucky girl
Cathy

November 28, 2010 at 11:52 PM  
February Grace said, 

Thank you, Jules. A powerful experience for you is a moving reminder to us all.

big hugs, and again, thank you.

~bru

November 29, 2010 at 4:29 PM  
Green Monkey said, 

FANTASTIC!!! THIS is why I follow you :)

November 29, 2010 at 10:23 PM  
Olivia J. Herrell said, 

Thank you, Jules, for sharing this. It was beautiful.

~that rebel, Olivia

December 2, 2010 at 11:59 AM  
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