Vertigo; Hitchcock Has Nothing on Me

Monday, September 13, 2010

Right now her only friend was the keyboard. With it the vision in her head could dance to life. One key, two key, slowly the story took to screen, characters began to emerge as reality; her mind was a blaze with the fable. “Type,” she ordered her fingers as if they were not already listening. “Why am I sweating?”

Questionable she lifted her fingers from the keyboard. “Why am I sweating?” again she asked. Wiping the last bit of perspiration from her brow she thought, “Maybe a break.” She knew the reality was, a break would kill the moment. “Push on” a little voice said, “You will be alright.” Just then she was not alright.

The little voice had unleashed some resident evil. The sweat had turned to chills, the room spun like a top and her vision began to flicker. Her eyes now saw an array of twinkling, floating stars. “I’m going to pass out!” she screamed.

Quickly setting the laptop to the table she tried with all her might to stand. Weak in the knees and her body felt like cement, back in the chair she fell. “Get to the bed, hurry,” she ordered the wobbly knees and again she tried to become erect, she made it but with consequences.

Staggering down the hall in what seemed a drunken stupor, bouncing off of every wall she struggled when suddenly the bedroom was in reach. “Oh my heavens,” she screamed in pain “this room is way too bright.” The light had entered her vision like a million tiny needles and the pain turned the room in a whole new spin. “Great, now I’m going to puck puke,” was all she could muster falling heavily into bed.

Forgetting the curtains, she pulled a cool pillow to her head just wanting the world to stop spinning. “Breath in, breath out,” she coached herself to calm or so she thought. With the calm came the throbbing. A throbbing, that was like an entire crew of miners that just new black gold was to be found in her head. Then the lights went out, she had passed out.


My friends this is not a story but a condition I do suffer from, Vertigo. I genetically have been blessed with it thanks to my grandfather. It visits every fall. While suffering in this condition I cannot stand, no equilibrium and if I do, I pay for it. The light is an enemy, thus the computer screen is painful. Should I try to be brave and overcome this condition I just basically pass out.

So during the fall if I’m gone or do not comment as per my usual I wanted you to know why. I will catch up with you as soon as the storm has passed. Isn’t it funny, spring and fall are my favorite seasons and they both, hate me.

Here’s wishing you a wondrous week full all you can dream. I say that because I need to go now.

Peace…



15 comments:

Gail said, 

I was so hoping it was fiction!

Very well written, I could hardly wait for the next sentence.

Get well!

September 13, 2010 at 7:47 AM  
Journaling Woman said, 

Oh my, Jules, I feel for you. When I was 32 I suffered a series of small strokes that prompted vertigo. I couldn't drive for 6 months. Since that time, I have episodes with vertigo here and there. It does feel like the world is spinning. I am praying- right now that this will pass quickly.

Teresa

September 13, 2010 at 7:48 AM  
welcome to my world of poetry said, 

How awful for you Jules, I thought at first reading it was a fiction even then it would have been unpleasant,
I do hope you can get over this.
Do take care.

Yvonne.

September 13, 2010 at 8:44 AM  
Clarissa Draper said, 

Wow, I've never heard of anyone with vertigo. I hope you're feeling okay. Do you have your screen on the lowest light setting?

CD

September 13, 2010 at 9:06 AM  
Alex J. Cavanaugh said, 

It was still written well, true or not. I only suffer from allergies in the fall, but I can't endure most amusement park rides due to vertigo. It's an awful feeling.

September 13, 2010 at 10:13 AM  
Karen Walker said, 

I developed vertigo on bridges a few years ago and it's not fun. I am so sorry you suffer so from this, Jules. Do take care of you.
Karen

September 13, 2010 at 10:36 AM  
oldgreymare said, 

I too have had vertigo from time to time but mostly events that passed within hours.

Post surgery one time had me screaming and holding on for dear life to my bed as I felt the bed tilting and attempting to pitch me to the floor. It is such an awful nauseating feeling mixed with the pain and fear of falling.

I am sorry to hear this is a chronic condition for you. My episodes were increasing with allergies that were worsening so I began using a nettie pot and they lessened dramatically. For me I think it had something to do with my nasal passages being blocked which then blocks the Eustachian tubes?

I do hope your recent episode passes quickly.

Suzan

...and thanks for stopping by ogm...poor thing. I was having such a great day, while there you were suffering :(

September 13, 2010 at 11:19 AM  
Tammy said, 

Well, you sure captured the horror of it! If it's seasonal, doesn't that mean there's a trigger? And if there's a trigger, can't you try to eliminate it? Sending good thoughts for a good autumn for you!

September 13, 2010 at 5:29 PM  
kobico said, 

Just take good care of yourself, Jules. We'll still be here.
*big hugs*

September 13, 2010 at 6:03 PM  
The Words Crafter said, 

Bless your heart! I get dizzy a lot but it's usually because of my left ear.

When I get a migraine, I'm sound sensitive. My husband is light sensitive.

I cannot imagine what this must be like. I hope you always make it safely to your bed.

I, too, have to wonder if there's a trigger.....

{{{hugs}}}

September 13, 2010 at 9:05 PM  
Vanessa Ross said, 

Sorry you're ill. Feel better!

September 13, 2010 at 9:12 PM  
Stephen Tremp said, 

Best wishes for a miracle healing heading your way. Splash! There it is. You're soaked in it. Hope to see you back blogging again real soon.


Stephen Tremp

September 14, 2010 at 12:32 AM  
arlee bird said, 

Have you seen a doctor about this? In the 90s I used to have incidents that sounded similar to the way you described. I finally got checked by the doctors and they determined I had an atrial fibrillation that was causing it. They did a procedure on my heart I haven't had anything like those dizzy spells since then.

Lee
Tossing It Out

September 14, 2010 at 1:13 AM  
Jules said, 

Oh thank you all for the well wishes. I am some what better today. :)

I did want to say yes I have seen a doctor. Wanted to prescribe medicine that only made me sleep, which I do anyway under this condition, so no pill thank you.

Yes there is a trigger, fall. What about fall other than it hates me I'm not sure.

Thank you all again. :D

September 14, 2010 at 11:22 AM  
Jo said, 

Awwww -- I'm so sorry, dear heart!

Yet one more thing we have in common -- an ailment that afflicts us in the Autumn...a season I LOVE but, alas, does not love me back.

Stay strong, sweet girl. You're in my thoughts that this passes quickly -- just take care of YOU, no worries about anything or anyone else.

Wishing you peace, serenity, good thoughts and quick healing,
~Jo
'The End Of The Rainbow: Life After Bankruptcy'

September 14, 2010 at 1:53 PM  
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