One Word

Friday, September 23, 2011

So where have I been? Well I thought I knew where I was but if you ask those who are trying to explain this Google+ then I have been somewhere else, a cave. I’m not even sure as I write this I will be able to figure out how to post it. Is this a plot to hide the rainbow?

I have tried three times to find my dashboard and as of now I’m still not sure where they hid it. Any one with a good map of Googletown will you please forward me a PDF?! But none of this is what I came here for, not at all. Why then did I come?

I came to answer requests for information as to my well being. Those who have requested this information know who you are and have again, touched my heart. You have shown me more concern than the so-called physical friends I have and yes I have physical friends who read this and no, I am not talking about them.

When I left you a dark shroud was starting to cover my world and it has. Unlike you though, I am not always able to lift this shroud with words, my vocabulary abandons me. A psyche entombed by the dark angel.

I am struggling to find my way back, searching for words, for meaning and this journey has no map just like Googletown. A wandering path lite in ebony where the trail is marked by puddles of evaporating tears. This is where I have been, following the ebony path hoping the puddles do not evaporate before I find my way.

To those who feel I have slighted them, I’m sorry, it was not intentional. To those who think this is about employment or money, give over it! Regardless of what they tell you, money IS the root to all evils. This is merely about a heart struggling to find passion, simple as that.

I leave you today with a word, difference.

When the world throws you options and while pondering the best selection, remember this word. Then ask yourself, “Is there really a difference and can I be one?”



Kathie @ Like A Box Of Chocolates said, 

I was wondering where you've been! Yours is one of the few blogs I've decided to keep following since I quit posting.

September 23, 2011 at 8:49 AM  
Alex J. Cavanaugh said, 

Jules, I've missed you! Remember, it's always darkest before the dawn.

September 23, 2011 at 8:52 AM  

Its great to see you back again! We can all make a difference. We are here for a reason and I've found its by sharing our gifts and talents with the world that we find we are making a difference.

September 23, 2011 at 8:55 AM  
Samantha VĂ©rant said, 

Jules- I missed you too. I've been struggling with the new blogger changes too! You can revert to the old format, I think. And Google+ confuses me. As for a difference, yeah, I'd like to make one. Credit cards are the root of all evil. I got rid of mine. Then again, I don't have any money to spend, anyway. Well, I'm glad you're back. here's to living out a passionate life!

September 23, 2011 at 10:04 AM  
Julie said, 

I've missed you too, Jules. I'm so sorry you are having such a difficult time. I'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts and hugs your way. Take care!

September 23, 2011 at 10:10 AM  
Kid Shuffle said, 

glad to see you're back!

September 23, 2011 at 11:51 AM  
KarenG said, 

Hang in there, Jules!

September 23, 2011 at 12:50 PM  
Paula said, 

Jewel Jules, we all make a difference. Each and every one. Without you, me, a friend, the universe would be a different place. Not the same as with us. You have touched my heart in times of need, thanks for being who you are.

September 23, 2011 at 2:38 PM  
Summer Ross said, 

Difference is a great word to leave off with- I will think about it when options take root in my mind.

Sending you fairy light- so hopefully you will find your way!

September 23, 2011 at 2:46 PM  
The Golden Eagle said, 

I'm glad to see you're back!

I hope you find the way down the path. Take care.

Excellent word to end with. :)

September 23, 2011 at 3:31 PM  
N. R. Williams said, 

Depression is a difficult illness since we often blame ourselves for even having it. When I am down to the bottom, I remember Abraham Lincoln and his struggle with depression. There's a man who made a difference, but it took him years to find his passion.

Passion is elusive, like a butterfly, flitting here and there. We are more grounded in reality, but often we feel as elusive as that insect we all admire. Put on your favorite comedy, sit around with your favorite snack, drink iced tea or water since our favorite drinks have a negative side effect that we don't need, (depression). My thoughts and prayers are with you. Seriously girlfriend, move to Colorado and we will have fun without the fear of tornadoes.
Love ya!
N. R. Williams, The Treasures of Carmelidrium

September 23, 2011 at 5:31 PM  
Gail said, 

Oh, dear Jules, I had no idea...I thought you were still having computer problems.

I am an email away.

September 23, 2011 at 7:51 PM  
Velvet Over Steel said, 

Jules, you most certainly make a positive and wonderful difference you make in this world and esp. to all of us! I actually do totally understand what you're talking (writing) about! I have been there so many times, esp. in the last several months. Some days I just want to take long naps and hide out. Other days I think I'm going to go crazy if I don't get out into the Sunshine and talk to people 'face to face'! That has been this week and if was a crazy, yet wonderful week with LOTS of face to face and phone conversations that I so needed.
I pray you find the 'passion' and happiness that you deserve! I too want that and have to remind myself that I'm not going to find it sitting inside by myself. :-)
Take care, Jules! & remember we all love you and want you to be Happy!!!!
Big Hug Hugh,
Coreen XOXO

September 23, 2011 at 10:12 PM  
welcome to my world of poetry said, 

Lovely to hear from you, hope all is well now.

I have been unwell for a few days and have taken a rest but decided hiding away won't solve anything.

Take care/

September 24, 2011 at 10:27 AM  
Arlee Bird said, 

Glad to see you back and fighting the forces that be. This computer crap can just be another encumbrance in the sticky web of life's hassles. I don't know what your tech problems are but I guess maybe each computer is programmed with it's own quirks and weirdities that are installed to make our lives more difficult.

I think we probably have some similar issues going on. I wish I had more evil money in my life so I could do more of the good things I want to do. If I don't find some decent income streams soon I'm going to be little more than my wife's house servant waiting for a handout from her. God, I hope not, but so far she's been pretty understanding of my situation.

Let's hang in there. Something good is going to happen. I feel it coming.

Tossing It Out

September 24, 2011 at 12:07 PM  
Flying high in the sky.... said, 

loved it.. missed your posts!! they manage to make me feel very rejuvenated.. there is something very positive about you and your posts :) ... whenever you have issues you feel down about, think about this one liner - "this too shall pass" and you will feel in control.. try it ... it will help... take care, keep smiling, keep posting :)

September 25, 2011 at 12:46 AM  
kobico said, 

Well, I take a break and come back to find you are in a battle with yourself. I'm pulling for you, Jules, and leaving you a little virtual hug.

September 25, 2011 at 4:09 AM  
DL Hammons said, 

Black clouds do only one thing...hide the light. The light is still there.

Whatever you're dealing with, hang tough! The clouds WILL part and the light will find you again. :)

September 25, 2011 at 10:05 AM  
Tammy said, 

Hope this post means you are finding the light again. I don't know if it helps or not, but you do make one. A difference, that is. Your soul puts forth a light that others can see. May it come back to you and lead the way. All the best.

September 25, 2011 at 10:43 AM  
GigglesandGuns said, 

You can continue to BE a difference because you always make a difference.

September 25, 2011 at 11:36 AM  
Katie Gates said, 

Glad to see a post from you, Jules, and I hope you continue to emerge from the dark place. You always bring light to the blogosphere.

September 26, 2011 at 12:57 AM  
Green Monkey said, 

ditto the Giggles and Katie comment... so true, so true! BIG MONKEY HUG ((((((SHANNON)))))

September 26, 2011 at 8:47 AM  
Elle Strauss said, 

So sorry to hear you've been struggling. I hope you feel better soon.

September 29, 2011 at 3:14 PM  
Nezzy said, 

Sweet Jules, don't ever think you don't make a difference 'cause you are a positive influence on many.

Ya just never know the lives you touch.

I've stuck with the old blogger format.

God bless ya and have a fantastic weekend. Hugs girl! :o)

September 30, 2011 at 6:48 PM  
Tammy said, 

Hope all's well with you. Please come back. Your fans miss you and are sending lots of good thoughts and prayers and vibes. :)

September 30, 2011 at 9:01 PM  
floweringmama said, 

Hey, I'm sorry I didn't know you'd been gone only because I haven't been in blogland either. I am covered up this semester. My cloud has faded for now and I hope yours does too!

October 3, 2011 at 9:24 PM  
Theresa Milstein said, 

I'm so glad you're back. September is like a lost month for me. Starting a new job + school, I lost touch with a few people. Yesterday, I realized you'd gone missing (I'm sorry it took me so long to figure it out). I'm thinking of you!

October 11, 2011 at 10:08 AM  
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